After months of planning and extensive work, this is the result. Not much to look at or even a very good skin.
But you gotta admit. Its pretty awesome.
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"I am a question to the world... Not an answer to be heard"
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
A Brief Internal Monologue Posted on the Blog.
In everything I've learnt so far The way other people tell me things. Sometimes it makes me wonder...
Blessed is he who has "everything" Little by little I do not think this accurate anymore. Over the years, I cannot imagine that happening. Wondering what went wrong, Not that I have a problem...
Not everything, not everything can be solved On any given day there are times when we regret things. The things we do sometimes cannot be taken back.
But I do really hope this message gets through Lest it be lost forever. To people who don't care anymore. Only if you notice what I know When it is quite obvious where this is going Evidently I never was a good candidate to hide secrets Definitely I'm not the only one to see it.
Perhaps I should find another way Realise my dream in a different way Observe the competition and realise the truth Maybe it would be different. I might have had a better chance at this. Sometimes regret isn't enough is it? Everything has its purpose, a form, a function. Some things are just hints to the past.
And maybe you might ask why, Republic poly taught me that everything has a use. Everything has its place and purpose.
Meanings are never clear. Each time I look at something All the factors can change its purpose Now that is what Republic poly is all about To teach and to nuture students.
To improve the way we learn and understand. Other polys would never dare to do the things we do
But then again we aren't other polys Evidently all other polys are playing it safe.
But do I really want to play it safe? Really, do I want to risk everything? Only time will tell right? Keeping up with my personality, Everything I've done to this point has been utterly selfish. Now I only need to relax and try not to fail too badly.
Anyway, when the little things noticed and seen and somehow everything is left in question if I'm doing the right thing or if this will make me regret everything, I'm still the one saying sorry for everything. Perhaps it is the right thing to do, perhaps not. But at this moment I don't care. Nothing else matters right? The only thing I can say is whenever I fail to see the signs other people leave for me, I always end up starting at the beginning, reading each and every word from the start right down diagonally to the bottom again. It usually does calm me down.
Prayer isn't the answer to everything I worry about...