Project SalvaciÃ³n

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Bro, remember something, when you make a point, doesn't matter who's right. All that matters is that you justify your ends. Liza told us we do things cause we fear what we have doesn't last. Above all, when someone asks you if you think standing alone and feeling right is anything worth having everyone with you, but feeling its wrong, do what they don't want you to. stand alone and feel what you do is a just cause.

35B might not last forever man, but if and when you can tell me "I know what I'm doing is just.", you aren't alone, 24 people stand beside you. 7000 stand behind you. But 20 work out to be your shield. I'm sure you can work it out.

Welcome to the brotherhood. You're the 21st member.

11:20 PM

Lets do this once more, from the top... With feeling this time.
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

RP will never tell you that you're wrong. Everything you do is right. If you absolutely feel you have to whack someone right now, go on, just justify the process.

To justify my means and ends? Think about it this way, Amelia always said "my parents would never allow me to go out with a guy from ITE." Which, in response, a certain friend raised the point, "What's wrong with ITE?!" He has a point. I'll go into that in a bit.

ITE, is not the end of the road, RP has taken in a lot of ITE students, and they are perfectly normal. More than that, they excel in class tasks. Not everyone is bad, not everyone there smokes. Most do, but smoking is more of a pasttime than a habit. A friendly offer for people around. You don't have to accept it, but just taking a bit of your life out to share a smoke with them, its out of courtesy. And they do appreciate it. To be treated as an equal. Of equal standing. RP does that to its students. Everyone is always cut down to size, or brought up to par. No student is left too far away or too far ahead. And that is what makes RP work.

You leave ITE to come to RP. You leave St Pats to come RP. You can leave Innova JC to come to RP. Forget where you're from or who you were then, RP does the same to all. You'll have confidence, self-reliance, teamwork and the ability to empower your teammates. It all doesn't matter. You're an RP student now. You're part of Team RP.

RP is a living, breathing society, it runs on its people. I would have loved to go NP or NYP, assuming they would have taken me. But now, if I knew my life now, then. I would have turned it down, RP all the way. Pro-RP, as Timothy put it. RP is a brotherhood, no one ever fights. Perhaps small conflicts, but its easily settled.

The seniors are never judgemental. They won't skip out on you just for looking funny. They are always around to assist you. And in RP, if you feel like it, and you're a student, pick out someone, anyone, talk to them. Its encouraged. Never feel alone. How's that? Yell and scream and someone's always around to say "What's up?" Got nowhere to go on friday? Use the library, walk up to anyone, ask if they are free, if yes, do what you like. Anywhere, anytime, any place.

That is RP SEG for you.

So what made Claire any different? The point was in saying "No matter what happens, I stick with you." Blind trust in a really crazy plan. Not always a bad thing.

But what really made a difference was the last few lines as said by Claire's "bro", "No matter where you go or what happens, it doesn't matter, you're still my friend" And that gave me the will to press forward and pretend I'm good enough to be in RP.

Listen to me when I say it. Claire, Felicia, Amelia, Jia Wei or ZW, I will work hard, I will make it to the honor roll of RP. If I'm not on it, I'll get pretty damn close. And Amelia, there's not a goddamn thing you can do about it. You wanna know why? Cause I have the will and my classmates have faith. I asked that of most of you, I know my friends, you did have blind faith, with no promise of success and continued to support my cause.

Thanks Feli for taking time out to give lessons down at coffee bean, wasn't easy teaching me, but I assure you, I took in every minute and every word you said. I remember having to drag you away from a good day's sleep-in just to play games, or just to sit around.

Thanks ZW for blindly assuring me and always being around.

But thanks Amelia, cause you set off this domino chain, and I assure you, when I get better at all this, when I'm working onboard an Airbus A380, perhaps as a flightplanner, or even a pilot, you damn well remember that you should have just went along with blindly trusting my plan than to think a slip of A4 paper labelled by MOE is going to dictate what I do with my life. Cause life or limb, I will do as RP says, I will use my strengths to gain leverage against the weaknesses of others. Its not wrong, I'm just doing what I have to.

And you, remember this clearly, if you listen to what someone else thinks of the people you hang around with and judge them based on education levels or based on looks, then you seriously need to schedule an attitude check. Cause if you have no faith in what a person can do, just by his own ability and hidden talents, then what makes you think everyone around you will honestly believe you have faith in god? Hypocrisy has its limitations. Know them.

Yes, bullshit now comes in cans, new colors and also new textures, in case you'd like to hang it on walls as well.

That is an RP SEG Arseloch for you. Defiant to the very end.

10:36 PM

An Alex Valen and a Lachlan. And a little bit of a Kyley. (Republic, Republic, We Rule, We Rule.)
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Saturday, April 12, 2008

"I'll take care of everything, you just sit back and wait."

I've said those words to many people, many times. For many years I always waited for someone to just tell me the same thing. That everything I need done, gets done. Without being asked. After all, I think I deserve that much. Just once. Maybe no one knows just how many times I've wished that. I always felt alone. Never had friends anyway. Not since primary school. I never had a reason to act "fake" or be a liar. I tried it a couple of times later on, but not when I was young. People hated me for it. For no reason. Just cause I hate metal music, I hate skateboarding and I almost dislike people who have an almost obsessive relationship with soccer. I hate soccer. Not the game. But the people who just have problems with me not liking kicking ball around a field.

Ask Bryan Cheng. Chai Chee Secondary. He knew what the kids in school did to me just cause I dislike soccer. Bryan tried to fit in as well. But I never wanted to fit in. I didn't "want" friends. If anyone really reads this, a confession to the walls, I only wanted Faye by my side to back me up. So many times. Usually when I had a problem, she'd have a solution. She disappeared when I was primary 1. I felt so alone. You know those little promises you make as a kid? The ones where you'd be friends forever. Never believe those. They never last.

I didn't want to say it, and no one knows. But it hurt so bad when I went everywhere to find Faye, only to have her say, "Sorry I can't remember". I don't hold anything against her, after all, I'm the only one stupid enough to hang on to memories. I had no evidence anyway. I had no proof. I was a horrible friend to her. And I can understand.

I bet no one believes me, not when I say I was very open to social stuff even when I was very young. All that changed pretty quickly later.

Now, everyone knows past age 14, guys are a lot stronger. I abused that, took revenge on people I didn't like. Using sticks, chairs and tables. The very people who bullied me and Bryan and many others in primary school. To err is human, to forgive is divine but to me, to take up arms and rise against the opposition, now that is where the fun begins. To be honest I took things to excessive levels. But I still felt it was justified. It felt right. No one else agrees with me. Cept anyone who was with me in primary school, anyone who felt abused by those assholes.

That was liberation to me. Everyone else just thinks it was uncontrolled violence. Two points of view. I prefer mine. Till Alex says "I'll take care of it all. Everything."...

3:30 PM