After months of planning and extensive work, this is the result. Not much to look at or even a very good skin.
But you gotta admit. Its pretty awesome.
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better man
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
sometimes i wish that i could just go back in time, and undo some things..i should have never called her that. i never knew her childhood was so hard, i never knew the real reason why she din want to go to skool. i feel really bad, if only there was a way to show her how sorry i am, she's going tomorrow, what if she never comes back? i can't live with this guilt.. i want to do all i can to be a better man..maybe i should write her a letter..hope that she reads it, leave a flower on top of the letter..yea, that's a great idea.
i didn't know that she was asking me trick questions till it was too late.. was i sad.. yea i was, i've hurt her why would i not be sad? was i remorseful, heck yea, i caused her to be sad..guess i didn't appear sincere enough to her, she seems a little reluctant to forgive me..i wish that she would..it feels horrible to hurt someone who _________ ____________. i guessed i reopened old wounds, i blew it. i'll never know how hurt it was, but it has to be really hurt..my heart tells me so, i feel that she's in a corner, tearing..how do stop a girl from crying? maybe reassuring them? comforting them, letting them know u care, but what if u're the one who made her cry, what would u do? the first thing she'll do is to push you away..guess i have to apologise first, keep telling her i'm sorry, tell her i never meant was i did, i let my stupid man-ness carry me too far, that i never wanted to hurt her..let her cry on my shoulder, let her know that i'll always be there for her, that i wouldn't hurt her again and mean it. Lord teach me to me a better person...