After months of planning and extensive work, this is the result. Not much to look at or even a very good skin.
But you gotta admit. Its pretty awesome.
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Try 10 pounds of dark chocolate. Helps to remind you, Shut the fuck up.
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
Something to start things off.
Picture this, at a bus stop, its raining heavily. You're in your ferrari. You see, at the bus stop, your perfect partner, an old lady and your best friend. But there's only enough space for 1 other person. A person once said, "I would get out of my car, give the keys to my best friend and ask him to drive the old lady home while I talk softly to my perfect partner." Sweet isn't it?
However the more efficient answer to give, which was suggested, is, "I would run the old lady over to put her out of her misery. Screw my perfect partner right there and drive off with my best friend for a beer down in a pub." Creative, no? Back to the entry.
Day of complaints and trails by fire.
Honestly, I've had it up to boiling point right now. Just when I was starting to like Maths. As in really like it, for once. I was bent on getting all the answers right that I suppose that was the challenge all the long but just when that happens my results come back and my mum just has to nag. Really.
Not Faye's brand of nagging where is actually constructive and helpful, its just a load of hot air escaping. If she had a point to it instead of speculations and assumptions, I'd give a damn. Really.
Let's just say it once and clear. If I NEVER played MapleStory and I NEVER used MSN. I WOULD HAVE failed miserably. Honest. My algebra would still suck. Its not 100% bulletproof right now but its of better standard. So for the love of all that is sacred, just for once, learn to accept that this is an alternative to work progress.
I'm not saying its instant results but graphical data PROVES that my MATHS, CHINESE, SCIENCES have IMPROVED. Even by a bit, that bit made a difference to me. You have no idea what its like to feel like you have a fighting chance in Maths after so long. From a very good student in this stuff I've failed cause I had lost my will to do very much.
That single thought from Secondary 1 to 3 is, "What happened to Faye?" Really. That was all I wanted to know. Know so badly, I would give up study time to research. And since now I know, I can go back to doing what I did best. Defying odds and predictions.
My odds were bad when I was Primary 4. I was literally going to fail and badly. But I quit tuition and ran off to learn on my own. Trusting only in myself, I succeeded in going against that tide. I won. That was a great feeling. Beating the system. I will do so again when I figure how. But I will.
Hypocrits and liars! Bunch of them. Not all. But some! That handful spoils the entire structure. My mum thinks being Catholic gives you the fucking right to believe what you will and make up shit about what being good is like. For the record I repect Jesus and everything BUT I don't have respect for certain people. Well, screw that. How many prisoners are Catholic? Are the buddhists in mass groups in jail? By Catholic, I mean Catholic, not Christian. Christians are nice people. The Catholic side, a bit hypocritical at times.
Look, Christianity is not about kneeling every Sunday, working your ass off and praying every morning. Its truly what is a perfect world. If you take a bible, literally cut out the unncessary passages about walking in deserts here and there, well, I mean obviously its a fucking desert. What else? Skyscrapers and cities? Being Catholic or Christian was just meant to teach one thing, how to be nice to others and learn that everyone is important and that if you felt that way, life will never have a bad side.
But people twisted that up until now we have some extremists and people who insist on coversions.
So from today onwards I officially declare. You can skip all this if you want.
By official willingness of free choices and will I, Ansel Tempestt Tan, voluntarily choose to withdraw from the Catholic faith and rid myself of all artefacts, books, inscriptions, words and thoughts of the Catholic faith. Permanently and I shall have no regrets. This withstands all time lengths. This, with all effect, holds true only to the Catholic faith, not withstanding to other Christian beliefs.
I withdraw my belief in Catholicism and hereby retain Freethinker rights.