After months of planning and extensive work, this is the result. Not much to look at or even a very good skin.
But you gotta admit. Its pretty awesome.
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Bloodstains on the ballroom floor
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Imagine this scenario. Starting from the day you were born, given life so full of hope. There was always these two people who would take care of you.Want nothing but the best for you. Maybe you never got that because you simply didn't agree. Or they just couldn't for personal reason beyond their control.
But everyone grew up with the dream of one day taking care of someone else. As well as new life and giving everything you possibly can. Even if it meant your own life. But what happened? The entire race is corrupt with power and want only what was in their best interests.
Do you know that the original concept only left marks which couldn't be seen.A love that was not material. Past all that matter and opposition. You still got the love and care from two people who would otherwise not know you. No one signed a contract that day. No one said its a must do.They just felt it had to be done.
Hate them for any reason of your own but that is your personal war. Hatred stems from anger and anger starts from nothing. The only kind of fire that requires no fuel or spark.This is not to make you realise anything. Not to convince you that you owe your parents anything. This is to make you wonder what have you done worth taking note.
That is right. You owe them nothing. Its the greatest deal ever made. Everything for nothing. Even so, does that mean you have to hate anyone? Have you ever been alone. All on your own. Not a single soul to listen. You have a lot to say. Watching left and right as parents hug their children,filling a space within themselves, something to care for. A couple tries to understand each other. A gentle peck on the cheek, learning to have something to live for, someone to love.
You aren't set on a guilt trip for nothing. A path is made for purpose and reason. As such, it shall serve. People walk by you everyday, yet how many do you greet hello. What reason do you need. Do you feel strange saying something so casual to someone you have not come to know? They aren't total strangers to you. Just people you don't dare approach for some reason.
Do you know the greatest gift anyone can ever give you is friendship. It usually takes people years to understand that and some never learn it at all. But how does it feel to have someone at your side? Hand on your shoulder, telling you its always going to be this way and you never have to worry about anything else because you are who you are and you shouldn't change just because someone said so.
Surely someone meant something to you. A kind word. A caring action. That someone was meant to be your friend. Through and through. You share you life with someone else. That is one more person that understands your internal conflict. Once again, life spirals. No one made so much as a verbal agreement this will last forever. Doesn't always have to.
The cycle of life has to go on with or without you. If you don't keep up, you'll find yourself lost. You have a gift of understanding but you lack the resources. No one will help you. Its all against the tide. Those who can't keep up probably deserve to die. Unfortunately that's you. You're going to be the one that tried to swim away so badly you've gone so far no one will ever get you. That will be your turning point. The day you die.
Never did take a lot of effort for someone to help you back on track. You'll never be the same. But you now understand what being close death feels like. The sickening chill of an icy grave. Either way, you do not care anymore. Someone asks you if you have any regrets you say no and everything you do is what you intend to do. Then you decide your answer doesn't fit the point. You're are not ok. You are not going to be fine.
However, this is not a race one can finish alone. Neither can they change who they are. But you try so hard to make something different. To make up for every little failure and every small mistake which you now feel needs correction.
With all that you try your hardest to succeed. To be the one you envy. The life you want to life. The zeal you have always shown. Things will never go your way but at least its not going the way others want it to. Take comfort in the code of conduct for that is the safety line that if you lose grip, no one else can help you. You will fall and whether that is your final mistake, that decision is made by you.
Soon, you realise that not everything in the world can be logically understood, so you set off to look for answers from people who may know. That goes on for 5 years. But at the end of it all. You've achieved nothing and obtained nothing but lost time. Eventually you understand the most accurate statement you've ever heard. Time can be slowed, quickened or delayed. People can soon figure ways to do all that. But one thing they can't do is turn it back. What is lost, remains lost for eternity.
The definitions become so crystal. Forever isn't forever because when you look at things through the eyes of others you realise forever is until time ends. But the key point was till time ends. Which proves an eventual end. Even if its not so close by there is an end.
So, my friends. That is what you should always keep in mind. When you whisper in the ear of the one you love the most. Love you will have shouldn't last forever. Because some things should never have an end. Never cease.
Through this entire passage what did you think of? What do you understand now?If the answer is nothing, then that is really disappointing. But, if you realise that life isn't always flowers and chocolates, sweet honey and clear skies, well, welcome to my world.